Letter to me

Melissa,
I know times are hard. A lot is going on. You have lost yourself in everything that has gone on in the last few years. One day, everything will work out and be okay, you just wait and see. You have two beautiful kids and caring for two others. You may think that you have so many issues, but it started from when you were little and your dad hurt you the way he did, then because of that you ran to a guy who was SOO much older than you, the relationship went bad...the cutting, drugs, eating disorder just kinda happened. None of it is your fault. You were young and now you are 19, just trying to deal with it all and to make sense of it. You will get through it all, because you know what, you have two kids who you would do anything for and they are your reason for living. You also have people who will be there when ever you need to talk. I know, I know, opening up isnt your cup of tea, but you have done it before, and it has turned out to help. I promise, things will get better. It has to. Just be paticent, relax and just work through it one step at a time. Do one thing at a time. Smoking and cutting are pretty much nearly out of your life. Drugs, are over and done with. The eating thing, keep an eye on that, it is so easy fall back into old patterns easily. So far you haven't had to worry about it.

You are wonderful, Amazing, smart, pretty, funny and caring...dont forget any of that!!!!